Some days… I’m just out of spoons.
Today is one of those days.
The kind where even the smallest things feel heavy. Where the to-do list doesn’t stand a chance, and showing up looks very different than it did yesterday.
And on days like this, I find myself thinking about past me.
The version of me who took a chance on digital marketing… not fully knowing where it would lead, just knowing I needed something that could fit into the life I was living.
Looking back now, I’m so grateful she did.
Because this is the only “job” I’ve ever had that truly fits into the tiny pockets of my day.
Between doctor’s appointments…
the kids’ activities…
my husband’s health…
the house…
the bills…
It still fits.
Every. single. time.
Not because it’s easy.
Not because it’s passive.
And definitely not because it’s a “get rich quick” path.
It’s work.
But it’s flexible work.
Grace-filled work.
The kind of work that waits for you when life needs you more.
And if I’m being honest… I don’t think I found this path on my own.
I truly believe God knew.
He knew there would be days my battery was empty.
Days I could barely get through the basics.
Days where the life I was living wouldn’t fit inside a traditional schedule.
So He made a way.
He opened a door to something different…
Something that could stretch and bend with me…
Something I could do in the pockets of my day—
Even when a particular day had none.
And maybe that’s what you need to hear today too…
You don’t need perfect conditions to begin.
You don’t need full days of free time.
You don’t need to have it all figured out.
You just need something that fits your life.
Because there are ways to keep showing up…
Even on the days you feel like you can’t.
💙 Tonya 💜
Lord…
I come to You with nothing left.
No strength to offer,
no energy to give,
no words polished or put together—
just me… exactly as I am.
You see the weight I’m carrying.
You know the quiet battles I don’t speak about.
You understand the exhaustion that sits deeper than sleep can fix.
Father, meet me here.
In this moment of emptiness,
be my strength.
In this stillness,
be my peace.
Remind me that I don’t have to hold everything together—
because You are already holding me.
Even when I feel like I’m failing,
You are still working.
Even when I cannot move forward,
You are still making a way.
Fill what I don’t have.
Carry what I cannot.
Restore what feels worn down.
And if all I can do today
is rest in You…
let that be enough.
Amen.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (KJV)
“And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness…”